Vertaallab 60 Jeroen Nieuwland – Diffractions
your chair is your enemy
the modern machines encourage you to sit down
I began dictating vertically rapid heliospheres
she shows the inside of her skirt
first act of rebellion / final act of opportunism /
a manual for revolution re-mind me you were saying
of what the people spoke definitely nothing
that has not been done before
how to capture the beauty of bombs
to begin with change to 1st person
to describe the swell as it charges
your body my headphones a permeable force
of flow ruthless sparrows condition for the sky
that haunts them every moment
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help puncture the rhythm of fire
the benches command upright positions
the people find ways to sit crooked
the skaters taunt taut lines of police
everyone = nice my racism ≠ intentional
antifascist first aid brigade walls of
police in monstergear forceful separations
of the many variations entropic movements
miracles of anarchy
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her wide open space desert in the city
everyone their own absolute open
brain folded into person effigy of certain style
friendship barter whiffs of affect interlocking
killer robots no man in the loop speaking circles
self-reflexive fractal conversation
two human animals collide with force of love
subjecting their shared & individual positions
to sexed positions difference wound & safe from harm
a pair of pairs of arms encircling cocktail
lulling chatter syncopated he sees
in her a kung fu fighter the tracers of her
circles charge his body forward chest
swan song shared days
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxIf I were to kill you
I would choke you to death it would be like
a condensed replaying of our relationship
I am ignorant but invite you to verify my suspicion
with me heavy yr load everywhere cover all
shattered together fitting odd out pieces puzzle
their jagged thruways works of passage
pin a pudding to a wall the stories include
auto mutilation try to shoot yourself in the face
handcuffed in a police car the coppers
tell stories the stories include infractions on bodies
protected & destroyed by law the strong arm
through the door where you live
bodies all manners of queer different
monsters in town what one needs
for another what it takes to become
ultra-evil very fine broken sprayed
dazzled blind fragile body slash mind
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they rename their city Dish for free satellite TV
one session please of hand-drill auto-trepanation
conveyor-belt 3rd-eye liberation & /or evacuation
little men in the head we gladly feast on
those who would subdue us wandering wombs
pockets of screaming for beauty
in things why are you not me? we trip up
a part of the world tracing paper
coordinates rip sandpaper audio
across a collection of your bones
pretty harmonious wilderness
beauty is death in the morning can I be
friends with a cop? policeperson soils
my sheets I make my bed through her layers
shall I hold open her door? Should we speak
softly or more? Is that resist or desist?
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without surface every frame a hedge fund on God
trap the motherfucker kill her dead
vampire her ecstatic pulse suck her instant bliss
bleed it through your skin shadow figure of
everyone transposed on everyone
some kind of deity waking all at different times
waving double digit billion arms super around
blümfarbwölkchen gasmaskdervish & the street
running out of the figures that emerge from some billow-
ing clouds, pushing strands of yellow night,
into the day “Çarşı, her şeye karşı!” every-
thing against everything else
in the world where we live in if you can’t
find the object you are not going to get on the bus
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‘Diffractions’ is een gecompileerd fragment van het gelijknamige lange gedicht dat dit jaar verschijnt bij Veer Books. Verder werkt Jeroen Nieuwland (1978) aan een proefschrift over contingentie en hedendaagse poëzie (Charles Uni, Praag), is redacteur van VLAK tijdschrift & oprichter van VLAK Itineraries, een nieuwe ebook serie. Zijn essays en gedichten verschijnen in Terrain: Essays on the New Poetics (Litteraria Pragensia), Dusie 16, Jacket2, The Rumpus, en Galatea Resurrects.